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Europe: Scotland

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    Past life experiances often hold an amount of romance. Not mine. I remember a lot, but not all. I was 'recruited' from Ireland to fight for the Scottish. At the time (circa 1420) the Scottish had a lack of both army and skills. I had been trained to fight since a small age. I was trained to fight for a certain battlefield job. Very light armour, nimble, unusual weapons. Two short swords with only shoulder armour. My right shoulder has a protuding spike My job was to kill as many people as possible by ramming walls of armed troups and slashing to kill more cumbersome armed solders who did not have my mobility.I feel that I was to kill or mortally injure and then move onto the next person. I also feel that I was 'expendable'.  I was trained to kill the English.
    I remember my name, Lucas. I still remember the emotions of battle and faces sometimes appear of past people I engaged in combat. The castle I fought for was unusual. It was shaped round and perched on top of a high round hill. Seems man-made. I have a picture in my mind but have never found a picture on the internet that matches.
    Lastly I remember how my life ended. I was bending over a well to get water, a person came behind me and using a cord throttled my neck until I was dead. I still have the scars in this life. I feel that the Scottish had become untrusting of me. I had reached an old age too. I also used to make 'swords' when I was a child in this life and the style (I can still wield the odd stick) matches the style of the period. I was not famous, cannot even find any Irish fighters who fought the way I did.
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    When I was fifteen, my family and I went to England and Scotland.  As we went further into the Highlands of Scotland, I became more and more familiar with the area we were moving through--I even knew what loch was around the next hill, and that sort of thing.  I felt a deep sadness, combined with a love of the Highlands, and joy at "coming home"  I still feel homesick for Scotland! Thanks for the site. Allison
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    One of my past lives, I have lived for more than 1000 years and remember many of them-was in Scotland in the 1200's. I remember being about 8 years old, sitting on the side of my house and leaning on the wall, looking at the mountains. I also remember being in my 20s and fighting for a very important cause. I remember killing many people for this cause. I also remember being in a church at one point as if I was being honored for something I had done. I was kneeling down in the front of the church. I had a few friends in that life, one whose name was Duncan, who was very tall and had long black hair. I was shorter and had reddish blond hair. My tartan was red and green, I have never really looked for which one it could be.
    I have never been to Scotland, but have been to France and Ireland, and the closer I am to it, the more I feel an intense pull towards it and the more I feel the need to go back home. I love rain and fog and feel like I am from the Highlands. I have even been told by a psychologist that many of my physical symptoms and illnesses are typical of the Scot, not from Canada where I am from. I remember the smell of the clothes and the grass and the dampness, I even clearly remember being a man and I am a woman in this life. I have had this memory for a long time. Thank you for reading this and possibly printing it. Again, I really admire your work here. Thank you. Manon Legault, Montreal, Qc. Canada
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    I believe that I am a legendary Scottish nobleman, who lived in the 1200's, now reincarnated as a regular guy.  My name then was Sir James Douglas "The Good", of the Clan Douglas of Scotland. Information on this man can be found through many sources.  It has even been said that without the Douglas Clan in English history, there would be little to write about. My birth given name today is Douglas James.  The more I read about this historical figure, the more parallels I find to my life today.  Many coincidental notions I had brushed off in the past, now make perfect sense, as I read about this man.  Somehow, I know that it was me, without a doubt.
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    In this year I was in Scotland. When we reach the UK, it feels like home. The sun, the wind and the smell of the air...If I'm home, when I was a bit youngeer...1 year...I always have the feeling that I want to go home. When one day we go to the Loch Ness, it was wonderful. I've felt I was at home. We were in a ruined castle. I don't think it was the castle I've lived in, if I lived there. We was in another castle. It was quite familiar. When I was 2-5 years old, I always draw, angels and 'princessess' I wasn't and I'm not a girlish girl...I'm really boyish...so I don't know why a draw that....maybe 'cause I can't draw a normal soccer ball:)
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  ok. i'm very new to this..... and i don't know if this makes any sense, or if my interpretation makes sense... but... here's something that happened to me.... but once, when i was about 9 years old, i started to become wary of anyone or anything approaching me from my left side, i get very nervous, agitated, etc. and i often get charley horse cramps in my left calf. about three years back, i went to bed early, and fell into a very deep sleep, and i'm suddenly sitting on a rock in the wind. i felt a sense of... longing. i looked at myself, and i was wearing two skirts, one of which is the MacKenzie tartan (which i found out i've mac kenzie blood in my family). my shawl was also the tartan, my hair was long, red, curly and in braids, somewhat. at any rate, i think i was in scotland, judging by the tartan, and the countryside. i think i was waiting for someone, but i don't know. suddenly, i was aware of someone on my left side. when i turned it was a man, charging at me. he stabbed the place where i get charley horses all the time, and cut the muscle right to the bone with his claymore. and the attack was from the left... i'm seriously wondering if that's why i get charley horses ONLY in that place, and always hate it when people are on my left side? if you have any idea.... please let me know . thanks :)
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    Hello, i haven't really had a memory, so much as a feeling of familiarity with Scotland, even though I've never been there in this life.  Every time I read about the land I feel a strange sort of pull in the back of my mind, as if a memory was trying to force itself out of my subconcious and the very first time i read a book set in 16th century Scotland i immediatly understood the way the clans worked and Lairds worked and most of the slang made perfect sense to me.  I don't know if i'm imagining this or not, but it sure feels real to me!  If anyone feels the same way and can maybe help me sort this out and find out what really went on, please email me. Thank you, Mystic
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    There are times when I go into meditation and I 'remember' events of my past life.  I've recollected a time where I was sitting in the courtyard of my castle, my husband, Lord Patrick Glamis, was recently murdered in the games room.  My son, John, runs out to me, telling me that the English king is on his way for a visit.  I automatically feel frightened, not wanting him to come.  Nevertheless, he is the king, if not for my country, for my neighbor's.  I have my servants prepare a very elegant dinner, and after we eat and party, I retire to my bed chambers.  A short time later, the king enters, demanding I partake in sexual intercourse with him.  I refuse, and this angers him greatly.
    His Majesty leaves early the next morning.  Later in the day, I receive a letter stating that I am to be tried in an English for the crime of Witchcraft.  It is signed by the King of England.  This confuses me, because I never practiced my religion in public, and no one, not even my late husband, knew that I wasn't Christian.  The English soldiers arrest my son and I, taking us to Edinburgh Castle.  We are put in separate cells in the dungeon, where John is tortured.  I am forced to hear his screams.  I confess to my 'sins', and John is murdered in front of my eyes.  The next day, I am brought to center of the village, tied to a pole, bound and gagged.  The pile of wood beneath me is set afire, and the last words I hear are from His Royal Majesty, "Let this be a lesson to all those women who refuse me".
    At this point I suffocate, and lose consciousness.  I remember being called Lady Janet Douglas, the last of my true clan.  I was also called Lady Glamis, because of my husband's title.
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    Hello. I'm  very happy to be able to share my thoughts with people who are open to probabilities beyond logical explanations. I have not had dreams about past lives but I do feel this great emotions inside of me when I encounter anything that has to do with Scotland ( music, architecture, landscape, people, accent, kilts, bagpipes, swords) I do feel that I belong there. I was born in Venezuela. My mother is spanish and my father is from India. I have no relation whatsoever with Scotland, but I am completely fascinated with that place of the world. I cry when I read their unfair history. I get excited when I hear the bagpipes. Is just my favourite place on earth. I don't feel like this for any other place including my own country.
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    I have never responded to such web sites, but felt a true kinship with some of what I have read here.  My "memory" began about 20 years ago, when my husband and I were out for a Sunday drive.  Quite unexpectedly, yet nostalgically, I commented, "This [countryside] reminds me so of Scotland."  Silence set in immediately; I'm not sure whether my husband or myself was most shocked, as I had never been to Scotland.  Shortly, I began to have "recollections" of myself as a young pubescent girl, with reddish blonde braided hair, frolicking with her large English Sheep dog, in the softest, moist, and greenest of grasses.
    This occurred in a yard surrounded by a cold, stone wall about waist high, and beyond the wall was a dirt and pebbled, well worn pathway.  I am aware that the weather was unusually warm at that particular time, as the skies were typically heavy, gray, with low-lying water laded clouds.  I recall dark, cold, possibly tarred or wooden steps leading up to a small dark dwelling, where this young woman lived with her ailing mother. Upon the sides of the steps are dirty urns, but I am not aware of their intended use -- only that they are unclean.  Upon entering the house, there is a rough stone fireplace, with many black pots, which is obviously the focus point of this small, dank dwelling.  This youngster was typically
overburdened with many chores, as the elder woman needed much care taking. There is no sense of a father or husband present. I am most struck in my "memories" with experiences noted by all the senses -- in other words, not just pictures, but rather smells, and the touch or feel of experiences.
    I have not traveled to Europe, and I am not an reader of romance novels or the like.  During the times of most vivid recollections I was attending nursing school -- possibly a precipitant for the recollections of other "caretaker" times.  God Bless.  Cindy
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    Hi, this is a short one, but very profound for me. Somewhere in the British Isles, I was sure it was Ireland when I was a child, but I did some research a couple of years ago, and now I think it may be the Highlands. When the sky turns a certain shade of gray, and the wind whips, the smell of some herbs, a particular shade of blue, a rock wall... these things all make me feel extremely homesick, nostalgic. Which is odd, because I can never pin them to anything in this lifetime. I even hunted out yarn, and crocheted a shawl in the Blue. It's very comforting.
    Anyway here's the picture I've been able to build. A stone house in the crease between steep hillsides. The land is green and gray, it's very cold, but I'm used to it. I'm happy and content, there are geese there. And herbs drying in the roof, of the house. It feels like something is coming, riders maybe? I'm surprised. And that's all I have. There's a feeling of maybe the riders aren't good, but not unexpected. Maybe surprised that it's now.
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    I have a vision sometimes that just kind of flashes and makes me faint with the pain it brings in my lower back (one time in the middle of class). I have a flash of battle and someone falling to my right. Every single time it starts where the last one ended, but what's strange is that I'm called the true Princess of Scotland. I do feel very stingily towards Scotland, and I'm wondering if anybody can give me any clue to what this is about!
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    Well, I don't exactly know when it was.  All I know is that when I was thirteen years old, I was pulled to anything to do with Scotland, when I would see pictures of certain areas I would burst into tears. Not from sadness, but from missing it so much it hurt me physically. I ache to be there again. I can remember the smell and the feel of the grass under my hand.
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    I had this dream one night in April 1999. For the few months previous, I had realized that I had been playing the role of a mother in my last long-term relationship which drained me in every possible way: financially, emotionally, physically. I was feeling so sick, frustrated and resentful. I feel this dream or memory is remarkable, because of the vivid recollection of emotion, dialogue and detail portrayed. In this life, I am female but not caucasian, and have no children and am not familiar with the British Isles at all via personal experience or media exposure.
    I am caucasian with blonde curly hair in a pony tail. I live somewhere cold and north in the British  Isles. I wear a blue t-shirt/smock and apron. I am mad and hurt. My lover is at the door but I do not want to let him in. We are having a lovers' quarrel. He finally says that if I don't let him in, he'll “blast his way in”. He puts his rifle to the door knob, fires through the lock, and enters. I am standing there in cold, white northern light. My  hands are crossed over my chest in a stubborn attempt to hide my bulging belly. I regard him. He is a tall and medium, well built man with reddish blonde,  balding hair and a full beard . I think he is wearing spectacles?  The surrounding outdoor scene looks straight out of  the movie Babe: cold and misty, foggy cliffs, grassy knolls, horse and buggy, rustic farms ... I am in love with him and there is a deep attraction there, but I am very hurt and very unhappy. I am  dissatisfied with his vocation of a musician, with a traveling military regimental band.
    "If he is to be with me, he should be here with me,  I say." are my thoughts. He regards me with deep concern and affection. There is a strong bond there. He confronts me saying :  “ Look here lassie, folks have been telling me that you're a-carrying me son, and that you're big as a barrel, they say.... " A pause,  then he continues more softly, " Now tell me,.. is it true?”
    I can barley contain my tears, and frustration. I  am mad at him for not being around  for the pregnancy, and vowed I would go it without him, but it was very hard on me. He may have stayed till end of term  for a brief , happy period of togetherness then left again,  or perhaps  I had the baby without him, and then he returned.  I am not certain as the next scene flashes to :
    We are both lying on a bed with plain white sheets with thin grey stripes. The same cool, grey northern light streams through the antique glass farm window and onto the bare stone gray walls. We are laughing with joy and pleasure at our new bouncing baby boy. He is about 9 months old. I  smack his pudgy baby bottom playfully with motherly pride, he is such a handsome baby. .  We are holding and passing the baby between the two of us with pride and joy. The baby is blonde, blue or gray eyed. He has  red checks, and a naked fleshy pink body. He is very pudgy but not fat, just very plump, strong and  healthy.
    My  partner says says something like : "  ..that makes three of us all together ....." I  look down for a brief moment of  sadness and poignancy. That gnawing ache returns and I hesitate before saying quietly :"  Yea, but you're never eva here..." I woke up crying a little.  Very sad. Very touched. Strange. Upon  waking I wonder where I was. My first thought is British Isles, not Ireland, but near Ireland. Then the Hebrides comes to my mind..

More European Memories:
Europe: General, Castles
Austria, the Balkans, Germany, Russia, Scandinavia, Spain, Turkey
England, Wales
France/Gaul/French Revolution
Greece
Ireland
Irish/Celtic/British Isles: Mixed and Non-specific Memories
Italy/Roman Empire
Scotland

See Also:
WWI - WWII - The Burning Times -
The Titanic - Multiple Lives
Mixed and Non-specific Memories